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ThoughIsayonebodywell,forsomereasonIfallfromabodyeverydayand,forexample,itishairandisacutnailandisproducedaroundeyesinanearanditistheskinorganizationwhichdidchestnutbrownhealingawoundandIshaveitingirl'smindandamnotaccompaniedbydistinctionwhetherdropisnotalreadythebody.Iamfilledwith"me",andtheworldseemstoriseandfeelssickifallofthemsupposedthatitisthebody.Theywhichdonothavetheoutlinethatyoudonotneedtolookhardlikethemainbodyofmeinparticularanddidclearly,smallotherself.Loveitverymuch,andfeellikeyearninginremotesmalloneselffromthebody,andglanceforaninstant,butIamsoanimpuritypattern;animpression.IlovedthatateitwhichwassweetandproduceditinlargequantitiesIlovedscabswhenitwassmall,andwhatofthescabyoulikedwhenitwasstrongonpurposeandtoreit.Thoughthechildwholikedeatingapickwellhadapaininit,buttheolderbrother,theolderbrotherwerenailgroupsexclusivelyifwasafamiliarperson,anditwassaid;Iamabsolutelyascabgroup.Thescarwhichisstilllefttothelegisatraceofthosedays.

Thescarlefttothelegismyregret,complex.Couragetoexposealegtobecauseofthescardoesnotspringout.ThoughIcanendureitthoughIcontroltheimpulsethatIwanttoteardesperatelyandlivealifewhenInolongerincreasewoundsbecauseitiscomplexwhenIamup,thatboththelegandthesheetarebloodyandtearitsomehoworotherifIgetupinthemorningwhenaneffortatthetimeoftheawakeningisemptyandsleeps.Insuchanactorcomplexoranything,Iamextraordinaryinthequitephysicalpart;isinterested.IfIamHanselandGretel,notbread,Iadvancetothemarkwithanailorhairinadeepforest.Iwanttoleavemyotherselfseparatedfromoneself.Igatheroneselfwhoisreallygivenanameofthenuisancetastebyaname"fallinghair"concerningabodyandclothes.Itbeingthatabodyisthelifethatthebodywhichfellintothebody,thefloorgettingentangledinacombfleetinglythinksthewetbodyinthebathtobeinthatway."I"dwellinthedetailswhileanindividualsurvivingthelifewithabodyofone,andsaying"me"referringtoit,anditpointstothingswhichfellfromthebodynotathinglikeGodofthegreatmanysimply,and"I"ammadetodothethingbythefeelingthatafterallisonlyamomentofthebigthingbeyondtheindividualinareason.

 

2005/08/31