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ThewomanwhoinacafeororangeisthetastelessrestroomwhereIhad,andstaresatthemirrorinthegloomyinsideofcar.Earnest.Frantic.Acourse.Selectdifferentsocalled“astherelaxedexpressionuntilawhileago;face“Atouchingwishtowantyoutobemewhoisprettywholovemewhoamreflectedinthemirrorverymuchreachesitwithbeingnervous.Thesceneisveryearnestandisveryveryearnest.Anditisveryweird.Itisastupefactionforascenedevelopedinfrontforawhile.Openmouthedness.But.AndIdonotoverlooktheirtransformationasthesamesexstare.Ontheotherhand,whatIlookinthefacewhetherexcessivepitifulness,thepitifulnessarethingsresemblingthemomentarypainthatapupabecomesthebutterflyisdifficulty.Looking"slovenlyme"whofinishbeingcarelesstoyoulikedeath.Iamreflectedinthemirrorandhatelapseofconfidenceif"I"amprettinesswithlessthanitofone'simagination.Thewomanwhomitisprojectedbyamirror,and"I"idealizeevenifthereislittle"me"isbetter.Itmustbegood.Iwhostareatmewhostareatthemirror.OneselfwhowishesthattherewantstobethatIstareatmebackfromtheothersideinthisway.Thefatherwishthatitwantstobewatchedinthiswaybyothers.Theheartlessotherself.

Ialwaysknockothersflat,andweareexposedtoeyesandlive.Beingconsciousoftheeyesofothers,IcannotlivesimplybecauseitissuchasocietyifIdonotlookfor"I"mewhomtherewantstobe"towanttobecome"desperately.Youmustlivewiththeheartlessotherself.ButitiswhatinconvenientifIseeuswhoIlosesightof"mewhoamtrue",andlivein"I"mewhomtherewantstobe"towanttobecome"andwillbewhattight.ItisgorgeousandisfullofvitalityasIamstartlednevertheless.Itistotallyliketheactressinthescene.Sothattheirbeautyiseternity.Evenifevenifitisalie,itisatruefigure.

 

2009/07/06