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Inlateyears"I"Iimagewhomtherewantstobe"towanttobecome"overflowsbythedevelopmentofthemassmedia.Inthatwayweareconfused.Thefashionmagazinewhichitiscolorful,andissweetlikeacakewhichisreleasedalmosteveryday.Fashioninformationthattobedrainedalmosteverydayandisusedandisconsideredtobeit.Theyesterday'sinformationalreadybecomesgarbage.Theblogofthepopularentertainerwiththedailyaccessofseveralthousand.Ininformationtospinaroundataviolentspeedinathand,Igetdizzy.WhileIamtroubledbylightnausea,unfortunately,Ilosesightcarelesslywhooneselfis.Becauseitwasthethingwhichwasinsuchastatelightunsteadily,outlineofone'sthingandthingtolikebegantomeltandbecamevague.ItoogetdizzytoomuchanditbecomestootoomuchvagueandmisunderstandsitcarelesslywhenmagazineandtheywhoposeonTVwereadmirationofme.Likethecarelessprincesswhomarriedtheprincewhoassumedtheairofahero,wewhowereabsentmindedhaverepeated"I"mewhomtherewantedtobe"towanttobecome"tothem.IimitatetheirclotheswhichIdidsoftly,strongmake,exaggeratedgesture,singingvocalmusic.Ibecomefranticandamlookingfor"I"mewhomtherewantstobe"towanttobecome"not"mewhoamtrue".Thestateisrightbloody;adyingstate.Itwillnotbehadin"mewhoamtrue"uswhoarewhy.Itiswhyandwilllookfor"me"inamagazinandTV.Iwearhighvicebuying,whybigribbonatastretchandblackenitaroundeyeswhy,andwhymustIwearaheelsuchasthefootbindingwhichsuffersfromafootwhyitisaburdenTheoccludefeelingthatiscontinuedindressupdolnowwhenIplayedabsorbedlywhenIamyoung.Iresignas"me",andwewillbecomesomeone.Makeone'sname;seemtoforgetit.

 

2009/06/18

 

 

 

 

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